This is probably where I'd call in "sick" to work, take off of school for a day or two or something like that. I feel abnormally tired right now. Granted, I could probably blame it on staying up too late talking to people but I'd rather do that than sleep. So I guess I'm really the one to blame regardless. It just feels like I'm getting to apathetic, which is something I try to avoid like the plague. Even now as I'm writing this, I've been invited to eat with some friends I'd really like to see, but part of me is telling me to avoid them and to just stay home instead. There's no logical reason for me to stay here. To be honest, I would truly rather be out with them, so what's trying to hold me back? It's the same with homework and chores. Procrastination is trying to creep back in and I'm not about to let it. I just wanna know what happened to all that energy I had in the fall??? I mean, I was living off of like 5 hours of sleep every night, rocking hard all day, and I never got tired!! I'm thinking it might be a dietary thing, if it's not too odd to say. You really can get depressed and stuff by eating unhealthy foods. I haven't come real food shopping in a while. Been living off of fast food for close to a month now and I need to stop it. It's expensive and extremely unhealthy. Hecks, that probably is why I had so much energy back then, I was eating a lot better back then. Sadly, I have to wait until Friday to do that because I'm dirt poor right now. But it'll be worth it to keep my body healthy.
On a side note, I don't remember when exactly I switched from being a pessimist to an optimist (Some time during my relationship with Kait, but probably perfected after it ended. Most of my talent, as it so happens, comes from copying her >.<), but recently I've really appreciated that new side of me. I don't really think I could have survived this past year without it. But life looks so good on this side. I look at my poor little brother and I don't know if he'll ever recover from whatever funk he's going through, all because he can't break his pessimistic outlook on life.
Anywho, gotta cut this one a little shorter than I wanted to. I have someone to meet for dinner ^.^
Relient K-Over it
I'll admit to who I am the day I come to understand.
I haven't got a clue, been searching for a few years now
Well if I don't repeat myself then I'll change into someone else
Well I don't quite know who, been searching for a few years now
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