A Slight Return

I was faced with a conundrum today at work. What is better? To remain a child, or to be an adult?

I thought about this for a while and thought that it truly was a difficult thing to decide. After some thinking, I decided that it was worth my age-old method of blogging. Just felt right. So here goes.

Pros and cons! That's what it all boils down to, right? We take the good, weigh it against the bad, and whichever options has the most of the best, that's what we choose. Now, I know you think "David, this is silly, one day you HAVE to be an adult, so this choice is technically moot." Not true, I say. Although, I do use the term "child" fairly loosely. I just mean more about the responsibilities that adults have vs kids. Kids have such fun, no worries Adults have so much freedom, but so much responsibility. So I don't know. I've always thought of myself as a fairly childish person in terms of my actual age. I may be 24, but I act around 21, sometimes not even that. But sometimes I get frustrated by certain responsibilities required of me as an adult. I just want the freedom to live, to choose, and to do as I see fit. But then again, that's the part I like most about being an adult. To have the freedom to do as I please. To be the boss and say "This is what I'm doing today, suck it." So I guess when it really boils down to it, adult or child, I just want my freedom. I want control. I know it sounds, childish to want that, but I don't think it is. It's an inherit part of our lives as humans to make our way in life, and how can we do that if we don't take charge?

Ed

It's been a while since I've had alcohol. I'd say I'm not sure why but I kinda know. I only drink when I'm happy for one (not to say that I haven't been happy, but it's still a factor), and I've had real problems with acid reflux recently and I'm trying to keep my throat for as many years as I can :p Anywho, tonight is a good night and it deserves the celebration. Did anything happen? No. Has my life changed in some drastic way? Not really. You see, I'm a fan of New Years resolutions, and after much deliberation I've decided what this years will be. To love life to it's fullest. It's hard to say how or why, but I've really fallen from where I was last year in terms of happiness. I want that back. I've already made some incredible strides so far. So here I am, drinking my amaretto sour, listening to the Avett Brothers, looking forward to tomorrow. Because while today is an awesome day, Tomorrow is another chance to be equally awesome or even better. I love my life, my friends, my family, everything.

Love

Love is something I feel called to. When I read through the Bible, love is what I see everywhere. I see love as the ultimate goal God calls us to. We're to love our neighbor as ourself. The ultimate commandment. So love is what I need to work on more. Last year I had it down to an art, but I kinda fell. I want to love everyone. I want everyone to know I love them. This is my focus right now.